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hathor_girlChapter 16: Blending
Rosha POV.
I have been with the Tok'ra, as Jolinar's host for almost a week now, and I am getting used to this life. Well, beginning to, anyway. I actually don't think I would like life without Jolinar. Or Martouf and Lantash, I will have to admit. They are both very sweet, and I think I am falling in love. At least Jolinar says that is why I feel so strange when I am near them - which is often, as we spend much time together, or when we go to meet them. I feel all tingly and not just from the naquadah - my heart beats faster and I get a strange warm feeling.
I have spent much time thinking about what I want to do, and I have finally made my decision. I want to remain Jolinar's host - and become the mate of Martouf and Lantash. Just... I need more time to get to know them, and Jolinar has promised me I will get as much time as I want.
So, tonight we are blending - and tomorrow I get to feel if it really makes that much of a difference. Will I really know a lot of more stuff, just from this? Be better at recogizing the Tok'ra Jolinar knows? Feel what she feels for Lantash?
Soon I will know.
Martouf POV.
Lantash and I are very happy! Rosha has just told us that she has agreed to remain Jolinar's host, and they will be blending, tonight!
It is a great relief to know that Jolinar does not have to risk a dangerous host-change. It is also wonderful to know that Rosha will remain here in the tunnels - and that she will become mine. I could not have wished for a sweeter, kinder, more beautiful mate! And I will get two - together with Lantash, who I already think of as my best friend.
It is strange, while I am certain I would be jealous if anyone else kissed or openly lusted after my wife, I feel nothing like that against Lantash. On the contrary - I really wish to share them and everything wonderful with him.
Still, I very much look forward to kissing Jolinar and Rosha - we have done it very rarely, and only with Lantash and Jolinar in control. Rosha need time to get used to this, and I can understand and accept.
Soon, I hope I will try to kiss them. Will it feel different? Aside from being able to control what is done, how and when, Lantash says it feels exactly the same to both host and symbiote, regardless of who is in control.
So, to be honest, I have never actually kissed a woman, though I have been present while my body did - under Lantash's control...and it felt wonderful! I wonder if I can remember to do it as well as he?
I sigh, and force my thoughts in another direction. My body is reacting to my thoughts, and I need to sleep. Lantash is already asleep - tomorrow we are going on a small mission. It is a harmless one, just to let Rosha and I - and one other new host, named Gerim, host to Aldwin - get used to this.
Finally, I drift off to sleep.
It is early morning, and we have just finished breakfast. Soon we will be leaving for my first mission with the Tok'ra. I really hope it will go well!
Rosha and Jolinar has shared breakfast with us again, something they have done almost every day this week. We have spent most of the time this week with them, actually. Usually, Lantash and Jolinar will be in control, and talk together or hold hands - or perhaps share a brief kiss, though Rosha and I have spent time some time talking as well, and we will do that more now, when Rosha has decided to stay Jolinar's host - we need to get to know each other.
Lantash is in control right now, and he has just kissed Jolinar. I wonder...
~Lantash. Will they let me kiss them? I mean, I'd like to try and kiss Jolinar...~
~I am sure she would like that.~ He smiles at Jolinar. "Martouf would like to kiss you." He gives me control.
I look at Jolinar, blushing and suddenly feeling like just giving back control to Lantash. What if I really suck at this?
She smiles at me. "I would very much like to kiss you, Martouf. Come here..." She crooks her index finger, making a come hither motion.
Plucking up my courage, I lean in and touch my lips to hers. She pulls me closer, and kiss me more fully.
It feels wonderful, though no different than when Lantash kissed her. One thing is different, though, I can control length and pressure and such of the kiss. I do my best to kiss her as Lantash do.
"Very nice - though you're allowed to make your own variations - you don't have to do exactly like Lantash." Jolinar winks at me.
I nod, feeling a little embarrassed, though also happy. My first real kiss! Well, with me in control!
Lantash and I, Rosha/Jolinar, and Gerim/Aldwin - all dressed in Tok'ra uniforms, are waiting near the Ring of Ishkur...I mean, the chaapa'ai. Rosha/Jolinar is wearing a different kind of uniform to what they usually would, as women on the world we are going to does not wear pants. It is a leather dress, and it is actually very attractive on them, and very exotic.
The Tok'ra named Malek - the one who convinced me to become Lantash's host - will be in charge of the mission, and he hasn't arrived yet. He is receiving some last-minute orders from Garshaw and Selmak, the local leaders of the Tok'ra Council.
Finally, he arrives and enters the code for the chaapa'ai, and we go through. This is still a strange experience for me - I have only gone through the chaapa'ai twice before, and it is not comparable to anything else. I feel cold - and a little sick. Lantash tells me it would be much worse if I wasn't a host, as he is regulating my body's reaction. In any case, I will get used to it, and the reaction will be less when I have gone through more times.
This is to be a trading mission, and it is not expected to be dangerous at all. The people we trade with are from a planet which belongs to the Goa'uld Zipacna, but he cares little for it, as there is no valuable resources. They are left alone, unless Zipacna wants hosts or slaves.
They do not know we are Tok'ra, so the hosts will be in control - this is part of why this is a good mission for new hosts, we will get to actually do something that depends on us.
Apparently, Tok'ra uniforms are similar to the normal wear for many of the less well-off humans on many worlds under the Goa'uld. That, and the fact that they look well worn makes them ideal. They even protect against the weather and the sand, and they will protect us against damage in 'minor' scuffles. Knives and such does not easily penetrate the leather of our vests and skirts.
I smile at Rosha. She looks a little unsure, so we're in the same boat there. Lantash suggest I tell her, and he is right. I walk a little faster, catching up to her.
"Rosha..." I say in a low voice. She turns to look at me.
"Yes, Martouf?"
"I... well, you look as if you're not really feeling comfortable with the situation."
She smiles, a little nervously. "You're right. I don't. I'm not used to talking to people I don't know, or even to being the one in charge of anything. It's not something a female would do much where I am from."
"I'm sure you'll do just fine... and I'm kinda nervous too." I pat her arm, a little awkwardly.
"Really? You, well, you look very confident and sure of yourself."
"Well, I'm not... many people try to do that, but it's not always true." I tell her.
We are almost at the village now, and Malek is telling us to listen. When he talks, I realise it is his host, Naron. He rarely speaks, otherwise, preferring to leave Malek in control. It is a personal preference - most Tok'ra seem to prefer the symbiote in control, while many share somewhat equally - and a few prefers the host to be in control.
Lantash tells me it is usually also dependent on which one is the calmer of the pair. He has a long tradition of letting the host be in control most of the time. My Lantash has a fiery nature, and a tendency to speak his mind, before thinking about the consequences. If he were in control often, he would probably be in a lot more fight, or at least antagonize people regularly.
"Remember, they are usually a friendly people, but you must be polite and respectful. We are interested in buying grain, fruit, vegetables, milk, and cheese. If they have eggs and meat of some kind to sell, we would like that too, but usually they only have enough for themselves of that, so don't push. As you know, we bring spices, some medicinal herbs, as well as gold, silver, and some gemstones." Naron goes on to explain the relative value of the various items, and how much and how little we will accept.
I start to panic, not feeling able to remember all these important pieces of information - what if I insult these people? Or if I make a bad deal, costing the Tok'ra resources and making us look like fools?
Lantash reassures me - he will help me, and besides. these valuables are easily accessible for the Tok'ra. We can get all the precious metals, gems, and such that we want. It is very easy to dig for with special tunneling crystals. As for looking like fools? Well, as long as we are nice fools, the people will still trade with us, and since I am very young, the locals will understand I may not be the most experienced trader.
Rosha POV.
I have been with the Tok'ra, as Jolinar's host for almost a week now, and I am getting used to this life. Well, beginning to, anyway. I actually don't think I would like life without Jolinar. Or Martouf and Lantash, I will have to admit. They are both very sweet, and I think I am falling in love. At least Jolinar says that is why I feel so strange when I am near them - which is often, as we spend much time together, or when we go to meet them. I feel all tingly and not just from the naquadah - my heart beats faster and I get a strange warm feeling.
I have spent much time thinking about what I want to do, and I have finally made my decision. I want to remain Jolinar's host - and become the mate of Martouf and Lantash. Just... I need more time to get to know them, and Jolinar has promised me I will get as much time as I want.
So, tonight we are blending - and tomorrow I get to feel if it really makes that much of a difference. Will I really know a lot of more stuff, just from this? Be better at recogizing the Tok'ra Jolinar knows? Feel what she feels for Lantash?
Soon I will know.
Martouf POV.
Lantash and I are very happy! Rosha has just told us that she has agreed to remain Jolinar's host, and they will be blending, tonight!
It is a great relief to know that Jolinar does not have to risk a dangerous host-change. It is also wonderful to know that Rosha will remain here in the tunnels - and that she will become mine. I could not have wished for a sweeter, kinder, more beautiful mate! And I will get two - together with Lantash, who I already think of as my best friend.
It is strange, while I am certain I would be jealous if anyone else kissed or openly lusted after my wife, I feel nothing like that against Lantash. On the contrary - I really wish to share them and everything wonderful with him.
Still, I very much look forward to kissing Jolinar and Rosha - we have done it very rarely, and only with Lantash and Jolinar in control. Rosha need time to get used to this, and I can understand and accept.
Soon, I hope I will try to kiss them. Will it feel different? Aside from being able to control what is done, how and when, Lantash says it feels exactly the same to both host and symbiote, regardless of who is in control.
So, to be honest, I have never actually kissed a woman, though I have been present while my body did - under Lantash's control...and it felt wonderful! I wonder if I can remember to do it as well as he?
I sigh, and force my thoughts in another direction. My body is reacting to my thoughts, and I need to sleep. Lantash is already asleep - tomorrow we are going on a small mission. It is a harmless one, just to let Rosha and I - and one other new host, named Gerim, host to Aldwin - get used to this.
Finally, I drift off to sleep.
It is early morning, and we have just finished breakfast. Soon we will be leaving for my first mission with the Tok'ra. I really hope it will go well!
Rosha and Jolinar has shared breakfast with us again, something they have done almost every day this week. We have spent most of the time this week with them, actually. Usually, Lantash and Jolinar will be in control, and talk together or hold hands - or perhaps share a brief kiss, though Rosha and I have spent time some time talking as well, and we will do that more now, when Rosha has decided to stay Jolinar's host - we need to get to know each other.
Lantash is in control right now, and he has just kissed Jolinar. I wonder...
~Lantash. Will they let me kiss them? I mean, I'd like to try and kiss Jolinar...~
~I am sure she would like that.~ He smiles at Jolinar. "Martouf would like to kiss you." He gives me control.
I look at Jolinar, blushing and suddenly feeling like just giving back control to Lantash. What if I really suck at this?
She smiles at me. "I would very much like to kiss you, Martouf. Come here..." She crooks her index finger, making a come hither motion.
Plucking up my courage, I lean in and touch my lips to hers. She pulls me closer, and kiss me more fully.
It feels wonderful, though no different than when Lantash kissed her. One thing is different, though, I can control length and pressure and such of the kiss. I do my best to kiss her as Lantash do.
"Very nice - though you're allowed to make your own variations - you don't have to do exactly like Lantash." Jolinar winks at me.
I nod, feeling a little embarrassed, though also happy. My first real kiss! Well, with me in control!
Lantash and I, Rosha/Jolinar, and Gerim/Aldwin - all dressed in Tok'ra uniforms, are waiting near the Ring of Ishkur...I mean, the chaapa'ai. Rosha/Jolinar is wearing a different kind of uniform to what they usually would, as women on the world we are going to does not wear pants. It is a leather dress, and it is actually very attractive on them, and very exotic.
The Tok'ra named Malek - the one who convinced me to become Lantash's host - will be in charge of the mission, and he hasn't arrived yet. He is receiving some last-minute orders from Garshaw and Selmak, the local leaders of the Tok'ra Council.
Finally, he arrives and enters the code for the chaapa'ai, and we go through. This is still a strange experience for me - I have only gone through the chaapa'ai twice before, and it is not comparable to anything else. I feel cold - and a little sick. Lantash tells me it would be much worse if I wasn't a host, as he is regulating my body's reaction. In any case, I will get used to it, and the reaction will be less when I have gone through more times.
This is to be a trading mission, and it is not expected to be dangerous at all. The people we trade with are from a planet which belongs to the Goa'uld Zipacna, but he cares little for it, as there is no valuable resources. They are left alone, unless Zipacna wants hosts or slaves.
They do not know we are Tok'ra, so the hosts will be in control - this is part of why this is a good mission for new hosts, we will get to actually do something that depends on us.
Apparently, Tok'ra uniforms are similar to the normal wear for many of the less well-off humans on many worlds under the Goa'uld. That, and the fact that they look well worn makes them ideal. They even protect against the weather and the sand, and they will protect us against damage in 'minor' scuffles. Knives and such does not easily penetrate the leather of our vests and skirts.
I smile at Rosha. She looks a little unsure, so we're in the same boat there. Lantash suggest I tell her, and he is right. I walk a little faster, catching up to her.
"Rosha..." I say in a low voice. She turns to look at me.
"Yes, Martouf?"
"I... well, you look as if you're not really feeling comfortable with the situation."
She smiles, a little nervously. "You're right. I don't. I'm not used to talking to people I don't know, or even to being the one in charge of anything. It's not something a female would do much where I am from."
"I'm sure you'll do just fine... and I'm kinda nervous too." I pat her arm, a little awkwardly.
"Really? You, well, you look very confident and sure of yourself."
"Well, I'm not... many people try to do that, but it's not always true." I tell her.
We are almost at the village now, and Malek is telling us to listen. When he talks, I realise it is his host, Naron. He rarely speaks, otherwise, preferring to leave Malek in control. It is a personal preference - most Tok'ra seem to prefer the symbiote in control, while many share somewhat equally - and a few prefers the host to be in control.
Lantash tells me it is usually also dependent on which one is the calmer of the pair. He has a long tradition of letting the host be in control most of the time. My Lantash has a fiery nature, and a tendency to speak his mind, before thinking about the consequences. If he were in control often, he would probably be in a lot more fight, or at least antagonize people regularly.
"Remember, they are usually a friendly people, but you must be polite and respectful. We are interested in buying grain, fruit, vegetables, milk, and cheese. If they have eggs and meat of some kind to sell, we would like that too, but usually they only have enough for themselves of that, so don't push. As you know, we bring spices, some medicinal herbs, as well as gold, silver, and some gemstones." Naron goes on to explain the relative value of the various items, and how much and how little we will accept.
I start to panic, not feeling able to remember all these important pieces of information - what if I insult these people? Or if I make a bad deal, costing the Tok'ra resources and making us look like fools?
Lantash reassures me - he will help me, and besides. these valuables are easily accessible for the Tok'ra. We can get all the precious metals, gems, and such that we want. It is very easy to dig for with special tunneling crystals. As for looking like fools? Well, as long as we are nice fools, the people will still trade with us, and since I am very young, the locals will understand I may not be the most experienced trader.