Fic, To the Rescue, Sam/Jolinar/Martouf/Lantash, NC-17, 10/12

[hathor_girl]

 Jolinar has gone through my memories, and Martouf and Lantash are still talking to each other. 

~Why are they so angry? And why do it look as if they're hurting so badly?~ I wonder. 

~They are disappointed in me for taking an unwilling host, though I am sure they will accept what you said that I was confused and thought you offered. Eventually. Further problems comes from the fact that I risked my unwilling host to save their lives - and that I went against what the Council said and went renegade for them. They are disappointed and worried - worried for me as well, because I will be punished for saving them. They are also hurting because we didn't tell them, and I think they had started to think of you as their mate, and was working towards getting to know you. All of this is on top of their deep grief for Rosha, which is making it harder for them to think clearly.~

I nod, realising what she says. I really feel sorry for them, and I would do almost anything to help them feel even a little better. 

~Jolinar - what would happen if I stayed your host? I mean, would the Council still insist on punishing you?~ I ask, the question one that has been jumping around my mind for a while. 

~No...at least not as severely. They consider you the victim, and they would never do anything to me that would be considered harming you. And it would be harming you if they forced you to be separated from a symbiote you are blended with and does not want to leave. It might even make you go mad with loneliness and kill yourself, if me leaving you didn't do it on its own.~ She is quiet for a moment. ~Sam - are you considered letting me stay? Blend with you? You must understand that if you do that, then it is almost certainly permanent. You must not do it just because you are feeling guilty over something, which you should not - you are not the guilty part her.~

~I don't want you to be punished. I don't even think I want you to leave anymore. I'm pretty sure I'd miss you terribly - and if I had told myself that a couple days ago even, I would have though I'd gone crazy! There's one more thing - I think I'm starting to, ah, fall in love with your mates.~

~I would feel honored if you would be my host, Sam!~ Then she giggles. ~Yes, they're gorgeous, aren't they? They are the sweetest, kindest men in the universe. Very intelligent and oh so good looking...and you don't know how wonderful they are in bed. I tell you, they are more skilled than anyone I've ever been with, and I've been with many. Before them, of course.~ quickly reassures me. 

I blush and feel like rolling my eyes at her gushing, but I have only to look to them to feel the same. I am well and truly smitten. 

~I don't have your experience, but I think I would very much like to experience their skill!~ I tell her. ~Yes, I will blend. What do we do?~ 

~First, we talk to Martouf and Lantash again.~

After some discussion, Jolinar and I decides it had better be me telling them that we have decided to blend, but first Jolinar will talk to them a little about all that has happened, and hope they are less angry at her now.

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"Do you forgive me, my loves?" Jolinar asks when she has explained herself, looking anxiously at Martouf. 

Martouf goes over to us, smiling sweetly. "Yes, my Jolinar, we do. We understand what happened, and although we are still sad that you and your host does not wish to remain together, we accept that. We will always love you, no matter what happens." He leans in and gives us a soft kiss. 

Jolinar takes a deep breath and I can feel how relieved she is. I feel her relieft as acutely as if it was my own, and to be honest, I am very relieved they are no longer angry at her. 

Lantash takes control and sighs lightly. "Yes, my Jolinar. Just so there is no doubt in your mind. We both forgive you...and we both love you, deeply and forever." He kiss her. 

"Thank you. Now there is something important we need to tell you - and we have agreed Samantha should be the one to do so."

I take over, looking at Lantash who gazes back, expectant - and somewhat nervously. 

"Um, Lantash, Martouf...ah, you see, I have been thinking, and I have discussed this with Jolinar...and have decided I would like to remain her host. If you two don't mind, that is." I feel nervous and blabber on. "Because, ah, since you're her mates it kinda matters and if you don't think you can get to accept me, then I totally accept that..." 

Lantash interrupts me by pulling me to him. "Shh, my Samantha. Of course Martouf and I can come to accept you. We already have, and we have already started to feel for you. Love will not take long to develop fully, we are certain of that. You are kind, selfless, and intelligent - and very beautiful. We both believe you are a good match for Jolinar, and we were deeply saddened when we thought you would not remain and be ours." 

Relieved, I put my arms around him and lean my head against his shoulder. "Thank you. Um, I think I am also, uh, beginning to fall in love with you two."

"That is wonderful to hear, Samantha." He gives me a soft kiss, which deepens, before he lets go. He sighs. "Martouf and I both look forward to getting to know you - in every way."